tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post8450952880658805397..comments2014-06-17T16:50:10.671-05:00Comments on Justin & Jessica: F.A.I.L.U.R.E.....and guiltJessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15510427723311598919noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-20803502289872366872011-10-14T23:01:37.462-05:002011-10-14T23:01:37.462-05:00I have never lost a child so I cannot even pretend...I have never lost a child so I cannot even pretend to know how that feels, but even though I have one child I can totally understand the emotions of trying to give your husband the children he wants and deserves. It's heartwrenching to know that I am the reason he can't have what he wants. And I have struggled alot with self loathing and it is so hard to not only have your own pain but there's also but they loves us more than we know, and it is hard knowing that in your twenties you have to choose a different path then the one you had planned. And it's hard watching every one else getting what you want, most. And it hard knowing what you want is a good thing, but you can't have it! I have struggled with this for five years now and here is what I've learned, my heavenly father is aware of me and my pain, and he could take it from me, but he doesn't , not because he doesn't love me but because he does love me and he knows that this is the refiners fire I need to become the diamond he knows I can become! It still hurts and sometimes I still get angry, but I also try to remember that I am not going through this alone, first of all my savior didn't just suffer for my sins, he shed his blood for my pain also, one of those drops of blood that caused him such great pain was for me. He has felt my pain and as I walk through this he is holding my hand because he knows how I feel and he has faith I can get through this, and he has faith that you can too. And we also have amazing husbands who feel and understand our struggles because they are their struggles also.Amy https://www.blogger.com/profile/04101573913972963824noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-81666712773410648712011-10-14T20:08:01.566-05:002011-10-14T20:08:01.566-05:00Ugh. People who tell you to "enjoy time with...Ugh. People who tell you to "enjoy time with your husband, you'll want it when there are kids around." are nuts. They have no idea. And I hate when people compare having a miscarriage to a stillbirth. It's one thing to know you're pregnant, another to feel the baby move, know their gender, pick out names, design a room, and prepare for them to be with you. That sucks, and no one else gets it.Susannahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08984221989557144495noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-18458652761997852992011-10-14T13:37:14.357-05:002011-10-14T13:37:14.357-05:00Thank you all so much. Thank you Suzy, and others,...Thank you all so much. Thank you Suzy, and others, for following my blog. Your comments are very much what I needed to hear. I appreciate them very much.Jessicanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-17596301385291874922011-10-14T12:04:20.583-05:002011-10-14T12:04:20.583-05:00Jess, I can't say I understand even a shadow o...Jess, I can't say I understand even a shadow of what you are going thru. It must be unbearable and so difficult. You are in our thoughts and prayers continually. We have some good friends who lost their twin boys in July. They were born at 20 weeks and both died within 24 hours of bring born. I know it has been a difficult struggle. My advice would be not to ignore or stifle your grief or feelings. Everyone feels the loss and handles it in different ways. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you are doing it wrong. Talking about it and thru it is what helps you understand and get your feelings out where they can be taken in by others and help you heal, rather than staying pent up inside and resulting in more problems down the road. I don't know what the Lord has in store for you and Justin but I know that He loves you and is mindful of what you are going thru. He is always just a prayer away. Love you!Lissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07479832134698014095noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-56872562491694982652011-10-14T11:28:38.376-05:002011-10-14T11:28:38.376-05:00It is very frustrating and hard to go through a mi...It is very frustrating and hard to go through a miscarriage or a stillborn birth. I recently was with my cousin as she went through her 4th miscarriage. (If you ever want to talk to her about how she has gotten through it I can pass her information on to you). She's expressed many of the same feeling that you have. I've heard her say she doesn't know why this happens or if there is a reason at all but you have to just keep going. I know that now, more than ever is your time to put your trust in the Lord and to keep holding on to Him as you walk through the dark. He will not fail you. I only really know you as Katie's friend but I have seen there is a light in you, in your countenance and in your personality. You are not doing yourself, Justin, Emily, your parents, or your family a favor if you allow that light to flicker or go out. They depend on your faith more than you know. Bad things happen and sometimes we will never know why, at least in this life, and that is very frustrating. But you can't let it knock you off your foundation. Put your trust in the Lord and He will help you through.Sara Johttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16282672425958712793noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-75735155329859762422011-10-14T11:12:08.256-05:002011-10-14T11:12:08.256-05:00Jessica, I'm glad you're talking about the...Jessica, I'm glad you're talking about these feelings. It's incredibly brave of you to share them - to help yourself heal and to help others who may be going thru something similar. Don't worry about how others judge them - that will never be part of the healing process.judynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8532198976979188368.post-63603303847079290252011-10-14T10:59:10.653-05:002011-10-14T10:59:10.653-05:00Hi Jessica, I'm following you over from Jenn.
...Hi Jessica, I'm following you over from Jenn.<br /><br />I am so sorry for your loss and what you are going through. Keeping you in my thoughts.Suzy, Not a Fertile Myrtlehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07093473278342134823noreply@blogger.com